So many years, I’ve avoided college because I didn’t think I was smart enough. I took an assessment test today at the facility, and the recruiter told me I had to score at least a 13; I scored a 31, and she told me a score over 30 was almost unheard of. I needed that boost of confidence. Math (the kind that mixes letters and numbers) has always been the bane of my educational existence. That’s why I didn’t stick with college because I knew to get my degree, I would have to pass it, and I was so convinced I wouldn’t be able to. I know it won’t be easy, but I also know if I try hard (and focus) enough, I can at least pass it. If only I had known at 22 what I know at 32 . . .
I was one of those lazy people who only wanted to do what came easy, assuming that all those who got master’s degrees didn’t have to work as hard as I did to get an A. I look at this new chapter of my life as a challenge to work my brain in a different way, perhaps even help me hone my creativity more. I am a big believer in simplifying our lives in any way possible (for example, I have a house cleaning schedule I stick to, which helps because I am forgetful, and I don’t have any more bath towels or dinner plates than I need), but that doesn’t mean we must be simple-minded. We should all be lifelong learners.
The biggest catalyst in making this decision was my daughter. Of course, I am doing this for myself, too (she was just the final push), but I want to be an example to her that you’re never too old, and it’s never too late to learn a new skill, better ourselves, and work towards financial peace. For so long, I’ve worked low-wage restaurant and retail jobs, where most bosses, especially if you do a good job, prefer to hold you back so they can keep you where they want you. In getting an education and proving my worth, I will be bypassing all that. I like to shop and eat, but I don’t want to work in those kinds of settings. Those jobs are fine, as long as they’re temporary and you’re working towards something. I think one can have more enthusiasm for a job like that if they know it’s only temporary—that better things are coming.
Completing this program of study will also give me the confidence I need to look for that job, be proud of my resume, not be nervous at an interview, etc.
I can finally see what is at the light of the end of the tunnel—a path which has shortened considerably, now that I know what I want to do.