Sister Grahame was the moderator
Sister Hatcher the observer
the elders, the participants—
all in an effort to socialize us into the Church.
Caitlin was 13 going on 17,
I was 18 going on 14.
I was sexually naive,
even as she was sexually savvy,
& it was, in this way,
I outpaced her.
When I accepted there might be a God,
I had all the answers I needed.
When I began to dabble in religion,
I was more confused than ever.
Though Mother was the solely converted,
we all changed by her changing.
The Mormons took her places
we weren’t sure we wanted to go.
Christ’s blood had been turned to water,
His body into leavened bread
that had been torn to pieces.