The temple was the Kingdom of God on Earth, the home, the second most sacred space, but under the banner of Heaven, I was closest to what I thought God was.
Pink, candy cotton clouds were spread across the periwinkle sky to the west, & I wondered for the first time how anyone could gaze upon such creation & not wonder if it all had a Creator.
The Church had made me think about God more. Though I knew there was something more, I didn’t know what that something was.
Mother had never seemed so proud of me, perhaps because, for the first time in my life, it had been her I had tried to please.
Everything I had ever done had only been for David, but forsaking my lack of faith, I had done for her.
Memories of life before Mormonism seemed long ago, & I wondered if I was finding myself in the Church, losing myself in it, or simply finding a way to be lost.
Like mass hypnosis, during Fast & Testimony meetings, members would go up to the podium & testify of the truthfulness of the gospel.
I’d never understood why God gave his children weaknesses to overcome, for did not mortal parents try to prevent such things?
Once Tony married Kath, he would be able to burn off his passion in a way that was acceptable to God, so he would not burn for eternity.