The evangelicals believed Jesus changed hearts even as the Mormons believed the threat of being separated from their families forever changed behavior.
To be drenched in water that would imbue one with fire & the Holy Ghost, seemed the equivalent of firewater, & would produce the same result.
A relationship with Jesus was the foundation of Deep South Protestant Christianity; in Mormonism, it was the relationships with our families.
My gaze fell on a shiny silver ball, & it was as if I were gazing into a crystal ball—a seer stone—except I was seeing into the past.
What he was telling me now only confirmed what Caitlin had always felt & I had never wanted to believe.
My life had been a series of context clues, teeming with subtext, warning me, but I’d wanted to believe it was for love, not blood, that he stayed.
To tamper with the sacred powers of procreation outside of the marriage covenant was considered second only to murder, even if it ended in a birth.
One of the prophets had proclaimed any man could marry any woman & make the marriage work, excluding the passion St. Paul spoke of.
She wanted me to love any one of them as if they were interchangeable, & not fearfully & wonderfully made.
The idea of giving up total autonomy for eternal security seemed a small price to pay, but I could never serve a mission, for I was, unbeknownst to me, fulfilling another’s.