Now I understood why David had stayed away all those Sundays—he hadn’t wanted to participate in the farce that was visiting Patrick’s grave.
I was grieving for my mother—the mother who was a stranger to me now—not for the father who had been dead to me all these years.
One lie had sent my father to the hospital; what Mother considered the truth had sent him to his death.
We sat there, at an impasse, & in that moment of silence, we were acknowledging that this was now the way it would always be between us.
Madame Novacek had told my mother before I had even been conceived that Mother’s first-born daughter would steal her first love and become her enemy.
The steely glint in Mother’s eyes dared me to take David from her, even as they warned me what might happen if I tried.
I was not Mother’s enemy, but I was at enmity with her.
“Don’t you know how much you mean to me?” Mother asked, but I did not answer, for I did not know.