Now I understood why David had stayed away all those Sundays—he hadn’t wanted to participate in the farce that was visiting Patrick’s grave.
I was grieving for my mother—the mother who was a stranger to me now—not for the father who had been dead to me all these years.
One lie had sent my father to the hospital; what Mother considered the truth had sent him to his death.
We sat there, at an impasse, & in that moment of silence, we were acknowledging that this was now the way it would always be between us.
Madame Novacek had told my mother before I had even been conceived that Mother’s first-born daughter would steal her first love and become her enemy.
The steely glint in Mother’s eyes dared me to take David from her, even as they warned me what might happen if I tried.
I was not Mother’s enemy, but I was at enmity with her.
“Don’t you know how much you mean to me?” Mother asked, but I did not answer, for I did not know.
For I learned of Mother’s life
by traveling backwards in time,
& with each trip,
the chasm between us grew wider,
so that she seemed so far removed from me.
Because Mother had been told her future,
her present had shaped it to fit the prediction—
the one that would put her at enmity with her daughter.
Their heaven was better than Baptist heaven,
their marriage, better than Methodist marriage,
for lovemaking did not end with earthly bodies,
but surpassed the thunder in the sky.
At the early morning hour,
Mother separated herself from her husband
by separating him from his life;
at the early evening hour,
she would civilly marry another man,
a man to whom she would be sealed celestially.
David had loved Mother for longer
than my father had known her,
honored her wishes by voicing not his own,
& cherished her as he cherished those
who came from her.
Krystal Ball’s Daily Dose of Snake Oil
Virgo (Virgin, or so she claims)
(Aug 23-Sep 22)
Salutations and congratulations! Today is your special day! There may be rain heading your way, but you won’t let it pour on your parade, because your sunny personality (whether hidden under an umbrella or out there for all to see like the light side of the moon) will not be dampened. Yin is out and Yang is in!
Your longing for love has been realized; a love story is writing itself—your self-love story! Your soulmate is getting hot, hotter, but you are already on fire; if you haven’t met this kindred spirit already, perhaps it’s as easy as looking into the mirror.
There are some important decisions to be made; whether big or small, what you choose will determine your future, if not present, happiness, so go with your gut (which operates optimally when full.) Today is the beginning of the rest of your life!
Drink more water to your health, and you just might find yourself in the right place at the right time, or not at the wrong place at the wrong time.
A bit of good fortune is heading your way some day in the future, so be prepared by being there, like really there. Live in the moment and not in your head, because it may pass you by if you’re not paying attention.
Something big is coming!